I fell in like with you the same way you fell in like with me - unknowingly and coincidentally.

I’m glad you’ve been good though, he said - not knowing or pretending to not know how badly he had hurt me. I wanted to tell him, that I haven’t been good always, and that for a very long time, life was pretty much unbearable for me. But I didn’t. I’m glad that I’m good now, and everything is good as well. Through all of this, I’m starting to truly trust that if things are meant to be, they will be. Regardless of it all, I’m glad things were meant to be this way, again.  

It must have been a dream as I sit here and gaze at the stars beyond my windows and afar from the roof tops of the highest buildings I see tonight. The essence of time has become irrelevant, as the awful memories between all of us began to fade. I kept thinking as if I haven’t already been thinking about this for the past four years or so, that what if we made better choices, would we still end up where we were tonight.

I’m hopelessly falling backward and somehow, I’m enjoying it. It’s like the butterflies in my stomach came rushing down from the crinkles of my nose, lifting up my right leg as I grab your face and lean in for a kiss. And now here I am, heels over head, for you.

I’m usually not the type to make plans. I live each day like its my last and I’ve enjoyed each and every single spontaneous adventures that I can remember. But lately I’ve been looking forward to a lot of things. I’ve been expecting, with a little more hope than ever. I know expectation leads to disappointment, but at the same time, I find comfort in being included in his tomorrows with the plans we’ve made and yet to make.

For the amount of bones that have been cracked all over your bodies. For all the people that you’ve hurt. For all the things that you’re tough about, and yet you’ve managed to show me nothing but your soft side and reassured all my doubts with the comfort of your chest.

I’m so glad you were worth the wait.

You need to want to be happy in order to become happy.

I can’t thank you enough for being patience with me. It’s so reassuring at the same time, knowing that you’re not just in like with me for the physical things.

I say “I miss you” like I say “thank you”. But that’s not how I mean it when it comes to the thought of you. I finally know what it means to crave. I’ve become desperate. Even if it’s just for a millisecond, I wouldn’t give up seeing you for the world.   

I don’t think anyone can be better for me than you.

Life has been so good to me. I’ve been waking up every morning unsure if yesterday was a dream or something. I couldn’t ask for anything more. I’m so grateful for all of these beautiful people that have stumbled upon my life and welcomed me into theirs with wide open arms. I feel really really blessed to be surrounded by my wonderful family and amazing friends.

Ever since college, I’ve started to dress worse and worse… idk. I don’t even care anymore. But I really miss dressing up and caring about what I wear and stuff :(

I wish I can sing. I don’t even wanna be famous or some shit, I just don’t want to sound like a dying cat… It would be nice to serenade my friends and stuff :’(

I barely wear any make up besides tinted moisturizer and my eyeliner but for some reasons, I feel really really insecure without them. So whenever I’m able to feel comfortable around someone without worrying about how bad I look, it’s such a big deal. :’)